As I try to write this right now, I remain completely speechless. I literally just finished this book, and I have no words. Which is a problem since I am trying to complete a blog post about it… This book is unlike any that I have read before, and it made me feel things that no book ever has. I felt panic. I felt terror. I felt the things that the main character felt. My heart was in a constant state of tachycardia while I was reading. Okay.. Before I continue, let me say what this book is about:
Synopsis by Goodreads: Lowen Ashleigh is a struggling writer on the brink of financial ruin when she accepts the job offer of a lifetime. Jeremy Crawford, husband of bestselling author Verity Crawford, has hired Lowen to complete the remaining books in a successful series his injured wife is unable to finish. Lowen arrives at the Crawford home, ready to sort through years of Verity’s notes and outlines, hoping to find enough material to get her started. What Lowen doesn’t expect to uncover in the chaotic office is an unfinished autobiography Verity never intended for anyone to read. Page after page of bone-chilling admissions, including Verity’s recollection of what really happened the day her daughter died. Lowen decides to keep the manuscript hidden from Jeremy, knowing its contents would devastate the already grieving father. But as Lowen’s feelings for Jeremy begin to intensify, she recognizes all the ways she could benefit if he were to read his wife’s words. After all, no matter how devoted Jeremy is to his injured wife, a truth this horrifying would make it impossible for him to continue to love her.
Let me say this, I have never felt so disturbed and disgusted by a character in any book that I have ever read. Verity was repulsive when Lowen was reading about her through the manuscript. She was a psychopath in the truest form, and I can’t even describe how much I hated her. Lowen felt the same way, and she struggled throughout the book with whether or not to tell Jeremy the truth about the manuscript. Everything led up to the twist at the end that I did not see coming. I had theories and ideas about how it would end and what the final twist could be, but I was sooooo wrong.
The author was very creative when writing this book because it was told through Lowen’s point of view, and Verity’s point of view through the autobiography. What made it truly incredible is the different tones that presented during each perspective. The tone during Lowen’s perspective was lighter, but Verity’s tone was dark and disturbing. I felt like I was really in the mind of someone experiencing extreme psychopathy.
Unlike my other reviews, I am not going to include any spoilers in this because I feel like it would ruin much of the content of the book. I’m still speechless. I keep typing, but I can express how I feel about this book. My mind is truly blown by the talent and unique writing style that it took to create such an imbalance of perspective.
I would describe this book as a true psychological thriller that embraces the mind of a psychopath. I recommend this book to anyone, and I BEG you all to read this. I promise that it will make you feel something. You may feel terror, disgust, anger, or heartbreak. You may feel one thing or, like me, you may feel everything. I really feel like I should probably go to therapy after reading this book because of how twisted and psychotic it is. When I wasn’t reading this book, I was thinking about reading it. I was coming up with theories and potential plot twists about how this book might end. It was consuming me to the point that I stayed up until 2 AM when I had to go to work the next morning. I didn’t even finish it then though. I could have, but I really needed sleep at that point.
Check it out. That’s all I can say. Please read it, and then come back and tell me what you thought. If you read it and review it, please tag me because I would love to see what everyone thinks about it.